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It's difficult working with a team. As a team, especially, when you're the leader.
It's made tougher by the fact that I'm not in a Christian organization. Not everyone's nice or amiable or amicable. Not everyone has the same viewpoint. And as a leader, you really do have to value each team member's opinion. Yet in the end, you have the final say. You should also be able to coordinate each member's assigned task and work with their capacities and limitations.
What my wise sage of a father pointed out that we aren't a team, but a group. In that spectrum, there is a huge difference. There's no trust so we're all trying to adjust. There aren't any norms yet, as he said. No momentum. Not yet. Alas. We are a group. Not a team.
And I'm trying to learn from it as much as I can. When you're in the process of being taught a lesson, or being pruned (as I would prefer), it can never be enjoyable in the moment. It's dirty, gritty, and it hurts. However, when you get through it, you just smile to yourself and say, "Aah, yes. That was beautiful."
And so. I take it one step at a time. I'm not forming any expectations or subjecting my team or myself to my impossibly high standards. When we finish this, we'll be a little bit closer. We'll have built our trust. We'll have established our norms. And to tell you the truth, I'm ambivalent about it.
Dear Lord, I need your help. Yet I'm excited about this as well. You get the feeling? :)
It's made tougher by the fact that I'm not in a Christian organization. Not everyone's nice or amiable or amicable. Not everyone has the same viewpoint. And as a leader, you really do have to value each team member's opinion. Yet in the end, you have the final say. You should also be able to coordinate each member's assigned task and work with their capacities and limitations.
What my wise sage of a father pointed out that we aren't a team, but a group. In that spectrum, there is a huge difference. There's no trust so we're all trying to adjust. There aren't any norms yet, as he said. No momentum. Not yet. Alas. We are a group. Not a team.
And I'm trying to learn from it as much as I can. When you're in the process of being taught a lesson, or being pruned (as I would prefer), it can never be enjoyable in the moment. It's dirty, gritty, and it hurts. However, when you get through it, you just smile to yourself and say, "Aah, yes. That was beautiful."
And so. I take it one step at a time. I'm not forming any expectations or subjecting my team or myself to my impossibly high standards. When we finish this, we'll be a little bit closer. We'll have built our trust. We'll have established our norms. And to tell you the truth, I'm ambivalent about it.
Dear Lord, I need your help. Yet I'm excited about this as well. You get the feeling? :)
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